pattern appearing

 God,

Your goal for me is to be fully present in Your Presence. I was going to get a Powerball ticket, but decided against it. You want me where I’m at right in this moment. Writing and keeping my focus on you. The pursuit of more millions than I can count would possibly ease some problems, but it would cause others. I would end up in me serving the wrong master. I know it. I’ve served the wrong masters for years, and it has had disastrous consequences. I still serve the wrong master more days than I’d like to admit. 

I tell myself if I had this, I’d be happy, but after listening to a clip of some preaching, I realize how wrong I am. I have to learn to be content in the now. The right now. I’ve been in one of the hardest seasons for a while now, and it is only bearing fruit now. Why, you ask?  It’s because I’m finally listening. I’m not trying to figure it out. Fixing me is not the goal. There is nothing to fix, but how I view God. 

God is not a genie in a lamp who gives me three wishes. I’ve viewed God like this for too long. I’ve gotten tired of waiting for my wishes to be fulfilled. If you see some flaws in the prior statement, it’s done purposefully. I’m realizing my wishes may not be good for me. And He causes good to happen for those who love Him, but it’s when I take me out, and put Him in my lineup. He knows I love Him, but do I love Him with my whole heart. He knows HOW He made me, and He doesn’t see an issue. Do I trust He knew what HE was doing. 

Is it really

Trust and obey

Those two words 

Reappear daily 

And for 

Good reason